A new me

I realize that my one follower that would keep up with my blog has probably decided that I had forgotten about it but here I am. Back and better than ever! Oddly enough I have to write everyday now for work. I have an amazing new job and writing is a big part of it. I am producing a radio show, a syndicated radio show. I didn't think I could see myself getting back into radio but I realize that was not looking at the big picture. I guess I should backtrack here. At the end of June I had a mini breakdown and realized that while I had not had much direction in my life I suddenly became burdened with the fact that I was mere days away from turning 30 and not only hating my job but the reality that I had been completely taken advantage of for 5 years washed over me like a wave, completely taking my breath away. I cried and sulked and then got angry and then unbelievably motivated. All of those emotions in a matter of about an hour. I had felt similar to this before but never as strong and never as sure. I had a renewed sense of confidence I had also somehow lost along the way. My 30th birthday came along and while I didn't plan the big hoopla I had an amazing birthday week! I realized that there were a handful of super amazing strong people in my life and a sense of gratitude surpassed any hesitation about moving forward. I felt the old Midge stirring inside me like a chick ready to crack it's way out of the egg. As if I just knew that things were going to be okay. I went back home shortly after my birthday and my family threw a surprise party for me and it made me feel so loved. That was followed by a week with my family and while that can be bumpy I came at it with such different perspective that it was just solidifying my feelings of change and progress. On my last day back home I got a message from a dear friend that he had a job for me. What!?!?!?!? A job? The one thing I had been yearning for-was it for real? I tried not to get too excited but something in me said "this is it". It was a job to produce a radio show, a national radio show. Big deal stuff. I of course had those mini moments of OMG can I do this? But those were quickly followed with "even if you can't right now you will figure it out!" I went through interview after interview and then the call came-the offer was made and gladly accepted. At that moment I realized that I would have taken the job even if it had paid half of what I had been making! It was not about the money, for the first time in years it was about me,about what I wanted, about what sparked the fire in me. I felt alive and my god what an amazing feeling that is. I just completed my first week and I don't feel like I am at work. I'm sure that it won't all be wine and roses but boy I'll settle for tulips and Pellegrino! Looking forward to week 2 and promise to keep writing!